Are you impressed that I'm posting a new blog again, though I posted like only a couple of days ago? I bet you are.
I'm so tired of all that right now. What?
Well, my bf is leaving monday for Iraq. Yep, that's the destiny of someone who's in love with an army boy. I wish he wouldn't leave. I really have no idea how to deal with that. I'm aware that it's going to be a tough year, for both of us.
But I keep on forgetting that he is in the worse situation, it's not me. I'm not the one who's sent off to war because of a certain man who .. well, I don't want to get too political right now, I'm really not in the mood for that. Leave it up to your own imagination what my opinion might be towards all that.
(Caution. This might get a little personal right now.)
To be honest, I never thought that I could actually love somebody so much. Since my lovelife got screwed up several times really bad, I never imagined being able to trust someone again. But somehow it worked out, and I still don't know why. It was just something special, and it still is. It's such a wonderful thing being with him, and since he's become such a huge part of my life, I can't imagine how life is without him. Believe me, I am not making up something. I know that this guy loves me too, and it's so hard to let him go. I wish he'd stay.
And I know it's going to be worth it, waiting for a wonderful person for such a long time. But it's so hard to stay strong.
The only "good" thing is that I get to see him on his so-called "R&R" (the leave soldiers get during war). I'll be going to california then because he wants to see me on his holidays and he also wants me to meet his family. (I've already met his dad when he came to visit in May) Maybe I'll also be able to see my family in nc if I can afford the trip from west- to eastcoast. I'm still debating on that one because of the money issue.
So well, that's my random thoughts for now.